~~> The woman I love ~~~> Dreams ethereal visions ~~~~> The world cannot crush.

Are you in a hurry?  Feeling pressured to get more done in less time?  Well, today is a day for you.  This is World Sauntering Day, a day to maintain a leisurely pace whatever you happen to be doing.  Sounds good to me.

I realize that my Eat Your Veggies Day entry was a bit convoluted and confusing.  I just had something on my mind and had to get it out.  I apologize for that.  For me, this blog is still first and foremost my diary.  Why do I subject the innocents who happen upon this blog to the ravings of my inner mind?  Because I can.

It’s hard to believe that it was one year ago tomorrow, June 20th, that I signed up for this blog, and on June 22, 2008 I wrote my first entry.  You’d think I’d be bored by now.  I mean, there are really only a couple of people who look at this stuff, ever.  (Hi Megan!)  But I’ve been keeping diaries for so long (wow, 31 years), this stuff just comes spilling out.  This is how I process, writing my thoughts and releasing them to the Universe.  I suppose blogging appeals to me because having an audience allows me to imagine that the Universe is paying attention to me.

Looking back over this past year, so much has changed.  New people have come into my life; others have moved on.  Peaches and I have completely separated from her family, and we’ve grown a little closer to mine.  Peaches took my name.  We moved into a great new house.  Best of all, Peaches and I have grown deeper in love in ways we could never have anticipated.  I’ve never experienced love like this.  I didn’t even know it existed.  But I know it now, and somehow I want to share it with the world.

It’s funny and silly to go back and look at some of the things I was writing about in this blog a year ago.  One thing I use to do a lot of, that I miss, is write awful haiku.  I use to LOVE writing these terrible haiku poems.  I’m not sure why I stopped.  It’s funny that I should look back and see some of those poems in old blog entries; I talked with an old friend who I haven’t heard from in a long time the other day, and he asked if I’m still writing haiku poems.  He reminded me that I got him into writing haiku 2 or 3 years ago, and he said that he still writes them thanks to me.  Between Pete’s encouragement, and my little retrospective of one year of blogging, I’m feeling inspired to get back into writing the world’s worst haiku poetry.  Be warned. 

To prove my point:

 

Anyway, if I were to sum up the best of what I feel I’ve learned in this past year of blogging, I’d say, “Nothing is more important than that I feel good.”  Really, this understanding was already deeply ingrained in my being before I started blogging, but it’s been very enlightening and affirming to help Peaches to understand and experience the truth of that statement over this past year.

When we met, Peaches was deeply enmeshed in the lessons she learned through 12 years of Catholic school and 20 years of unhappy marriage.  Like most of us, Peaches was trained to believe by those who dominated her, “I need YOU to behave in a way that makes ME feel good, and believe me, YOU want ME to feel good; it’s very important to YOU that I feel good.”  Indeed, Peaches still describes herself as a people pleaser.

It has been extraordinarily satisfying and enlightening for me to help guide Peaches along the path of understanding that NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THAT SHE FEELS GOOD!  It has been wildly beneficial to my own growth and understanding to bear witness to Peaches’ awakening to her own soul, her own power, and her own personal relationship with the GOD of her understanding.  Truly, over the course of this year, Peaches and I have become student and teacher to each other, and together we’ve opened the flood gates so that Universal Love and Abundance effortlessly flow through us to touch the lives of everyone we come into contact with. 

What do I imagine the year ahead has in store for us?  I can’t even begin to imagine… but I know this much, THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

XO,
K